nasi goreng laju erley

yum yum...ni la makanan tengah malam saya. ingredient? hahaha...nasi putih, bawang merah&putih, cili & sos tiram. main buang2 dlm kuali, tadaaaa...simple ja, tp rasa dia sedap ooh, jan jeles XD

saya kasi nama ni makanan sebagai : Nasi goreng laju erley
hahahahhah...

E.R.L.E.Y

another boring day, just checking email

today i checked my email, there's nothing much interesting things that appeared. fuh...that's lame...oh...then i saw someone commenting me in my youtube profile...lol..she thought i'm a filipino, but quickly realize i'm a malaysian, hahahha... xD

then i went to check on my hotmail, still no answer from jabil for the INSEP programme...well, i guess the offer is not valid anymore...though i'm not that frustated, but somehow i felt a bit of regret...anyway, for me, if God doesn't want me to be there, then there's no way i'll be there...i believe everything happened for a reason. maybe i ought to be something else...now i really need to plan ahead what to do, where to stay.

after the humiliation last friday night, i'm really confused as where do i go next. it seem to me those penangites doesn't want me here, but for me they were just a bunch of bitches and dick. i don't even care.lol...even if i stay, this is not because i really like here...oh hell, what the fuck do they care! my plan is to save some money at least rm2000 before i really go back to sabah(that'll take quite sometimes you know), and that's the end of story.

power rangers in space (PRIS)

Last night i watched this power rangers in space in youtube. it reminded me of my childhood. i used to love the show, and now that i watched it again, i still like it so much, though now i think that's a lot bunch of crap...who cares?lol

my fav PR series are PRIS and power rangers lost galaxy(PRLG). i'm going to watch these 2 seasons if i got time later...yay! talk about reminiscent of the good old times, yeah ^^

swollen eyes

today i wake up with swollen eyes...i'd been crying the whole night last night...now, my eyes are as big as an apple. this is a normal symptom for me. everytime i cried, my eyes will swell so much. it hurts and itchy sometimes. that's why if i can endure, i will not cry, especially in public! that's just so not me.
i 'm so fed up with the people surround me...of course i knew very well that everyone is selfish, including myself. i just hate the fact that i have to live in it, lol.
sometimes, i really want to die, just die. but, honestly, i don't really see the point of leaving this world just yet. so, my other solution is to run away from this country...try to start over in a new place, where no one can recognize me. for me that's the better choice...but, then again, there will be a lot of obstacles...so finally i will give up...what a shame...

fresh graduates?

it sucks! furthermore i'm not in my hometown...i choose to stay, not because i like it here in Penang, but because i don't like it my own place! i just hate people, i feel no difference between me and the illegal/ legal foreigners working in factory...maybe i get better chances in job MAYBE, but the look from those people's eyes(local) are cunning! i'm just an alien. the longer i stay, the more i want to go out and find new places, but i hate to start everything over again. so i'm dead trapped, here with my imagination. i hate, i hate, i hate people!

i hate you

i don't want to be in SS group anymore! this Saint & Sinners group aka Syiok Sendiri group. of course i'm selfish, but i just can't take it anymore...
people treat me like i'm an alien, but well,i guess it's because i'm not very familiar with them and their language ENGLISH! so what the fuck?! i don't even care if you guys are well educated scum, all i care is the growth of my faith...ahhhh...i don't care anymore!